Letting Go? it's really okay!

Letting go is so hard! Whether its friendship, moving on with life or from a relationship. We get so caught up in the other person, in a job or just life that we can't seem to let go. When is the right time to let go?                                                                                                                                                                                                                                   The one thing I have learned is that your ego can allow you to hold on to anger, the past and the things people have done to you. Anger can set you back and preventing you from living the life you were meant to live.                                                                                                                                                                                                  We have all had things done to us and been in so much pain it was unbearable. How you carry on your life lesson from these experiences really say a lot about who you are and what you are learning from these experience.  In the past few years it feels like I have grown more than I have any other time in my life. Naturally it would seem like it would make sense. I constantly heard I was to mature for my age, and that I was also too serious. I think when you grow up in an environment that forced you to view the world differently, you become awkward and define yourself as an individual. I have not met a lot of people that have faced some of the same things I battled in my life. I have met many that have there own stories. These books are not complete, so we keep living and writing or rewriting our stories. I always knew I was different, weird to some people but different. 

Growing up I had times where I was popular, bullied, alone, and as I grew my road became lonely. No not lonely, like I need friends lonely! I mean my journey has consisted of growth and with growth comes relationships that you need to let go of.

I think it was about three years ago my circle became extremely small, some stopped talking to me and others just drift apart. I think as a person and finding love, I started to realize that my journey is always evolving. I have experience love in a way that is comforting and has helped me to elevate myself spiritually and mentally.

When my mom passed, I remember thanking God for everything the good times, the bad times, the heart breaking times, the times I fell to my knees, and the times I watched her fight. To some of my real friends they paid attention to my journey, the struggle I fought with her, Over 13 years and she never gave up. I remember in the last few years slowly letting go of those that needed to exit my life, or those that wanted the same of me. I no longer reached out to anyone that didn't serve a place in my story. I believe there page had been complete. I knew that if God wanted that page to continue, it would.

So here I am, sitting on my yoga mat writing this and thinking,  it is truly okay to let go. I have met some amazing friends that stood by me after losing my mom, called each day, supported my mom on her farewell and those that showed up just to let us know we support you. Those are the ones, God choose to walk with me.

At one point in my life I surrounded myself with people that could care less about what my mom faced. I believe that friendships, relationships, should lift you up. The moment it brings you down, it is not serving your growth and bringing love to your soul. I have to admit that with growth I also realized that the person I did not want to become, I became that girl. I connected too people who suddenly influence me in such a destructive way. I began to change.

Today I have walked away from anything that will take me away from being loving, kind, caring, and trying to change the world. I surround my self with a group of women that teach love, and I have thought me what true friendship is. These ladies are  rewriting amazing books for themselves through adversities they may face. Believe it or not, I prayed for these ladies to come into my life. I made a promise to myself that anyone I let into my circle or family and friends needed to respect me and themselves. I no longer was here to be destructive to my life or anyone in it nor would I allow any of my friends to do the same. This meant you couldn't call me with gossip, rumours, or hearsay, you were no longer allowed to talk about anyone I considered my friend to me. It meant you had to take that up on your own time.

I spend most of my time writing, and building my business. Yes, I consider my writing my  business but also my passion. I love doing this, always have and always will. The first time I picked up a pen and pad I was eleven and have never stopped. I hardly ever talked, so I wrote everything and anything I could to escape my mind.

I hope this inspires someone, it is not to put anyone down. It is simply to let you know that letting go, is okay. You never know what lies ahead if you do not grow and aren't afraid to move on. I am not saying stop talking to your friends, I am saying there comes a time where negative influences can change you, alter your soul, and if you can not gain positivity directly back into your life by having constant communication with someone, it is time to figure out what is best for you. Too often we do not realize our energy flows and it goes where it  flows. This is good and bad energy. Someone's aura can be toxic, and someone's aura can be gentle, loving and peaceful. Choose wisely who surrounds you and don't be afraid to leave some doors completely shut. Your soul, your peace of mind might thank you.

What I have hope for is humility, understanding and to continue this journey...

So there you have it!

okay, yes this article is long!  I just had so much to say tonight. Thank you for staying on this journey with me. I hope you all have an amazing weekend and until Monday.

Love and peace